Thursday, February 24, 2011

Seek and you will find

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." Matthew 7:7-8
A couple weeks ago, I saw the sign floating around campus for the women's retreat, and for the first time in my life I had this sense of need to attend it. So I filled out the paper work and handed it in... then for a week I thought, and rethought, and thought again about my decision to attend ...maybe it wasn't such a good idea after all. I mean, lets be honest with ourselves, the title of the retreat was "the courage to follow"... and we all know I don't do that very well. I don't do the vulnerability thing and I don't like the thought of a bunch of perfect people seeing my imperfections. Anyway, I paid the money, I didn't want to waste it, so I went (this has nothing to do with the story except that it gives background ha)

The speaker was Candace Corwin, a woman who was the farthest from perfect and only came to know God because she was trying to get a boy (riddle me that, right?).
I started a conversation with her about my future and my plan for life, and somewhere in there we got into a discussion about my past/present relationships/friendships/complications etc. As we were talking she said something that really stuck with me(she probably didn't realize how meaningful it was to me) she told me to not let the pressure from others determine how I shape my relationships...so what's the significance?

I've been struggling for a while now with my relationship with a specific person. I have tried to talk this out with friends but instead of listening to where I'm at and the details and significance of my relationship with this person, they jump to conclusions about my intentions and tell me what to do (which, btw makes it really hard to talk to them about). Yet spending 30 minutes with this complete stranger, she was able to listen to the words I was saying, understand what I was trying to tell her, and reveal to me an answer I've been looking for, for basically a year now.

I'm a big believer in God placing people in our lives for a purpose and I really believe that God placed me at that retreat for me to hear the answer to a question I've spent so much time and prayer (and tears...there I said it) on.
why share this as all (especially since I gave almost no detail about the situation)? sometimes I think we take for granted the promise of Matthew 7:7-8. I know my situation seems kind of minor, but it was a major source of my sleepless nights. God tells us that if we seek, we will find and if we knock the door will be opened for us. That means that God has an answer to every question we have (even if we think it's insignificant),as long as we ask, and I'm so Glad I asked my question and he was so gracious enough to lead me to the answer.

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